The sad truth

Yesterday I took my son to buy a suit for his dad's funeral. You know I have been holding it together but yesterday was so hard. Just knowing he can't call his dad whenever he wants breaks my heart. The way his dad was taken from him is horrible. I keep looking at the pictures and my thoughts keep bringing me to how much I learned from Chris. He changed my life forever. He taught me how to use a computer and he bought me my first new car. He loved reading and because we would watch him read and study for hour and days the kids and I also learned to love books.
He was a good dad and he was crazy about our kids. Chris was adopted so when Christopher was born he looked at and told me .You know this is the first person I have seen that is related to me. It was an awesome moment. When I was pregnant with Isabella he was working at the hospital and he had a 24 hour shift so he couldn't make it to my doctors apt. I found out we would be having a girl and I sent him a big bouquet of flowers that said It's a Girl !! He was so excited. I remember us trying to teach the kids to ride a bike and how challenging it was..
He took Bella and Christopher on a big camping trip that lasted about a week I remember when they got home the kids where in heaven. They had so much fun.  There was so many more memories to be made and the sad truth is they have all been taken from us.