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Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Just Keep Moving

Today I went to visit Chris and it was so sad. I go a couple times a week it feels right. The kids and I feel better every time we go. This morning I went for a really early 8 mile run before the day got going. I had stopped running early and you know what running early made my entire day so much better. I noticed a huge difference in my mood and my energy level. I was able to focus on good memories about Chris. I guess I am writing this because even in the crappiest of times remembering to keep moving helps so much. It helps in the saddest of times. 

Monday, July 31, 2017

The Black Canyon 50k

I signed up for The Black canyon 50k . I thought it would be a great training run for Tahoe 200 . The weeks fallowing the passing of Chris I had no running in me. I felt guilty leaving my kids to go for a run so I stayed as close to them as I could. I was not happy because running is my happy and training for a race is what really keeps me motivated but life has been mixed up lately. The last two weeks I kicked myself in the butt and started running again. 
On Saturday July 21 I woke up early and drove 25 minutes to the race. Another reason I signed up for this race it's so close to home. We started at 6am. I had no freaking idea what I was in for. I thought oh its a 50k I can do that and we don't have that many hills in San Diego so I should be okay. BS
It was really hard and challenging. I got my butt kicked and it was just what I needed to remind me that I need to keep at it if I want to take part in this sport.
About the race. It was really well organized . The shirts and hats totally rock. There logo is awesome and they had Popsicles at the aid stations... The volunteers as usual where so nice and helpful.
The course was a bunch of complicated loops but the way they marked the trails was really well done. I did not get lost and there where so many ribbons that I never really freaked out about being lost. The heat and the climbing sucked and it went on forever and ever. The moment I got to the top of a hill oh wait there is another hill and another.
It took me 8 hours peeps !!! That is a long time but looking back this is a great race because your working your ass off. Your running climbing and trying to keep cool. All the things we look for in a good challenging race !!!
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I felt a-lot like the green guy in the picture !!
Now its back to training the Tahoe 200 is in about 1 month. Yes, its going to be a great time because even when it sucks its good. 

Thursday, June 15, 2017

So grateful

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What I am most grateful for is this world..
I am so grateful for my family . I hold our family get together close in my heart. I love the sense of knowing these are my people and even if things are bad they can never stop loving me . I can never stop loving them. What I feel I have with my family is a forever relationship and for that I am so grateful. 

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

The sad truth

Yesterday I took my son to buy a suit for his dad's funeral. You know I have been holding it together but yesterday was so hard. Just knowing he can't call his dad whenever he wants breaks my heart. The way his dad was taken from him is horrible. I keep looking at the pictures and my thoughts keep bringing me to how much I learned from Chris. He changed my life forever. He taught me how to use a computer and he bought me my first new car. He loved reading and because we would watch him read and study for hour and days the kids and I also learned to love books.
He was a good dad and he was crazy about our kids. Chris was adopted so when Christopher was born he looked at and told me .You know this is the first person I have seen that is related to me. It was an awesome moment. When I was pregnant with Isabella he was working at the hospital and he had a 24 hour shift so he couldn't make it to my doctors apt. I found out we would be having a girl and I sent him a big bouquet of flowers that said It's a Girl !! He was so excited. I remember us trying to teach the kids to ride a bike and how challenging it was..
He took Bella and Christopher on a big camping trip that lasted about a week I remember when they got home the kids where in heaven. They had so much fun.  There was so many more memories to be made and the sad truth is they have all been taken from us.


Monday, June 12, 2017

Missed SD 100

My big race this year was the SD 100 . Missing the race and staying home was what I needed do. I really missed being out there with my friends and you know how build up an event forever in your head and when its happening and your not there you feel kinda sad.and left out. That was me. I am looking forward to running it next year and for now I will focus on Cuyamaca 100k and the Tahoe 200 in September.
I am excited to get out there and run soon. Hope your having a nice summer. G

May you rest in peace

My kids lost there dad last week in a most horrible way. I lost my x husband and a life long friend. His friends lost the fun guy that made them laugh. The medical world lost a great researcher . His mother lost her  passionate son and the world lost Chris. There won't ever be another him. He was truly brilliant. He made you feel like you where the only person in the world and he had so much class. 

I started this blog when we where married and even though it did not work between us we still somehow kept our friendship together. We traveled all over the world and had many adventures. Chris spoke French and Italian fluently he loved traveling. My favorite story of us is how we met. I was late going to work so I was running through the parking lot to the elevator in the building I worked in. I made it to the elevator when I looked behind me and saw this tall guy ask me to hold the elevator and run in. He told me I ran to catch the elevator because I saw you and I thought to myself I might never see you again so I thought I would run in and ask you to lunch. I looked up and said lunch would be nice. Then he said you look very pretty and I said you look great too.  
2 years later we where married and 3 years later we had Christopher. When it was good it was great. My kids will miss him and I will miss him. May you rest in Peace and we will never ever ever forget you. 

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Happy Mothers Day

Happy Happy Mothers Day !!
I hope your Mothers Day wishes came true.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Lost Boys 2017 race recap

The day before the race I drove up to Lake Cuyamaca with the plan of sleeping in my van. The sun was setting on my drive and it was devine. I don't remember having a more beautiful spring in San Diego in a very long time. As I was standing here I could smell the mountain flowers. 

I stopped one more time along why 79 to take this picture too. My thoughts where tomorrow morning at 5 am I will start running from the bottom of the desert straight up here. Man that is a long way !!

I was on the bus at 3:30 am. They drove us about an hour I think into the desert and  by 4:30am I had checked in and had my bib. #39. The race director had everything ready to go. There was muffins and I think coffee I am not sure. The RD for the race was there making sure we all knew what was going on and giving us some safety tips. The race started promptly at 5am. I decided to leave my head lamp because the sun would be out soon. This is a picture of the sun rising over the desert it was stunning. I was running with Robert and Mark at this point. Robert and I are running the Tahoe 200  together so we had talked about trying to hang together during this race to get a feel of how we would do. 

The morning is my favorite part f this race. I highly recommend the 
Lost Boys 50 miler. I mean look at this light. The start felt easier this time than our training run 3 weeks ago and that's probably because we ran it and got a feel for it. I am sure my  excitement had something to do with it. San Diego has such a supportive and just great ultra running community how could you not be in running haven. 

Here it looks hotter than it was . The weather was perfect not to hot and not to cold. There was the perfect head wind and everyone was still smiling. The first aid station I remember coming into Larry told me I was number 39 just like my number. I also remember they had the best potatoes I have ever had at a race. I had 2 and kept moving and talked about how good they where for a while. Robert was really good about not letting me lag. I think if I was alone I would not have been as motivated to keep moving and I would have taken way more pictures but nope I kept running along.
 I always run with head phones but lately I have been rewarding myself with music. This time I told myself when I get to Orriflame Canyon I will turn on my tunes and I am so glad I did because I was able to push and yes dance my way up the canyon. I felt like a lucky kid that gets to play outside all day with her friends while climbing the canyon. (while getting her butt kicked by the climb )  After climbing up Orriflame I started to get my second wind. I think it was all that NWA that got me going. I almost forgot to mention that Becca with Nutritiously Balanced helped me with my nutrition and that made a huge difference too. I never felt sick and I was able to keep my energy levels consistent. My expectation going into Lost Boys  was running 25 min faster than last year. That gave me a goal to work towards. Imagine my surprise when a man at an aid station told me your 5th female. I knew there was only 14 woman running and lets be real here in the past I am always near the back. I have never trained so much before and its true if you put in the work you get better results but better results for me would of looked like 30 minutes faster. This training thing really works !!!

I kept running and thought  to myself maybe you should try and catch the next girl G. My thoughts ... what do you have to loose  just run. I pushed myself and pushed some more. Than I passed 5th and then 4th and I had a fun conversation but  she encouraged me to keep pushing so I did. I ended up finishing 3rd female 10 minutes behind second and an 1 hour and 16 minutes faster than last year. 
 All my training with the Trail Crashers is paying off. I get so emotional after I run too. After this picture I gave my friend Becca a hug and cried.  This is such a good race if you love running challenging courses that take you places this race offers just that. Climbing ,stunning views all while getting your butt kicked.
I kept thinking of this quote during the last 5 brutal miles when I asked myself why are you doing this.
You can choose courage or you can choose comfort but you can't choose both.   Brene Brown

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

My thoughts on my race this Saturday... Lost Boys !!!


Elevation profile for Lost Boys !!! eek
I am sitting here with both butterflies and nervous energy. Jack and I went to the park all day to keep me focused on something else. This weekend is Lost Boys 50 miler at 5am Saturday morning. I am really excited for the adventure of the race and I would say nervous for the amount of hard work that is going to be needed to complete this race. There will be so many of my good friends running that it also feels like a mini party. The race to me feels more like a survival crazy weather 50 mile adventure. 
There will be 66 participants this year and out of that 15 females. Its a point to point race starting in the  Anza Borrego dessert that's in San Diego County.1,100 foot elevation tops off on top of Cuyamca peak at 6,512 feet of elevation., Then it ends at Cuyamaca lake  with nearly 9,000 feet of climbing. It is 28 miles of trails ,4 miles of dessert sand 18 miles of jeep road. Does that not sound like an awesome adventure. Last year Angela Shartel  won this race ! She is this really fast ,super strong altra athlete. she ran the entire 50 miles with all that climbing in 8 hours ..  Yeah incredible 
I just really feel like I am so grateful that I will be able to take part in such an exciting event. I am so grateful for the story that will come of showing up and running. My goal is to finish 30 min faster than last year. Last year my goal was to finish and I did so looks like this Saturday will be another amazing day !

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

The La Jolla Half marathon

I was not planning on running the La Jolla half but a friend asked if I wanted to join the fun and I could not say no. We took of promptly at 7:30 and I knew I would have to push because I was running on tired legs. I already had 55 miles in for the week but my thought was the more tired I am the better because during these 50 and 100 mile runs I have coming up I will for sure be running on tired legs so what better way to prepare. I love this race for starters its 13.1 miles. You know you'll be done early that is a huge plus. The weather is amazing and the scenery is the best of San Diego.  

The morning was perfect. Great weather a great DJ and so many excited runners and a food truck.

I don't have any pictures of me running but I had a good race. 8:36 average pace and 1:55 finish. I was happy with that . I didn't Walton the hills and that is a big plus for me. 

Here we are after a super fun time. My friend Daniel and me. 

I also did the total fan girl thing and asked Andrea from runcoachrun if I could take a picture with her. She was so nice and sweet. She is an amazing bad ass ultra-runner.  Look at my smile I was so excited. I had a great time and I fell so grateful that I was able to take part in such a fun event !!!

Thursday, April 6, 2017

It was a great day !!

The Wild Animal Park. The news lately is so sad that I am going to get back here and focus on the positive. Today my dad jack and I went to the on a mini adventure to the Wild animal Park. This was the first time he went on the Merry Go-round with out being afraid. Kids grow up really fast and having four I am constantly reminded that this life of mine is a gift and it is not going to last forever so I try to find the story in of each day. Today's story was watching my dad and Jack hanging out together. Jack asking my dad ," grampa why is your white ?" My dad trying to get Jack to share his ice cream by taking some when Jack was not looking . The way Jack asks my dad a bunch of questions about the animals? Questions like ," Do the big animals poop ?"  I try and take these moments in and then I hold them tight because they are the stars in my sky. THE BIG moments are in the little pieces we choose to hold on too..

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Encinitas Half Marathon

I love this medal. The white building is Swamis and I have been running by it for years. I had to share the medal so cool !!

Encinitas Half marathon

Two weeks ago I ran the Encinitas Half marathon. I put in a-lot of miles the week before and I was not planning on running but last minute I joined. I went into it as I do most of my races. I wanted to enjoy I and not push because my head told me I should be tired from the 60 something miles I put in that week. It was a very well executed race. The fast people first and then the rest of us. I felt sore at first but my mile 3 I was feeling really good. If you don't know Encinitas the race was pretty much flat and it's a beach town. The people are awesome and the town has that old fashion beach feeling.
So I am running and here is my thing I know I am not a fast runner at least that's what I think but as I was running I said to myself G lets see if you can run at an 8:40 pace so I did and I felt fine. I just kept that pace up and then I did the whole How do I feel thing ? I do this this thing and I am sure a bunch of us do. The body scan, My feet don't hurt and my legs are fine and I am breathing really well so all is good. Then I thought lets see if I can go faster and you know when you have been running 12 ,13 minutes miles forever 8 feels fast. Then I got down to 8:30 and just stayed there and felt fine. I had one mile to go and I looked at my watch and saw that if I could run a 7 minute mile I could run a 1:50 and that would be my fastest half marathon ever. I was not going for a PR but it was so exciting to see what my body could do when my mind let it. Its fascinating where this journey of running has taken me. I have grown so much as a person because of it. I am thinking maybe next time I run a half I will just start fast and see what happens !!! 

I was so happy and it was a great day !! Oh and the medal.
the craziest things happen when you don't expect it !

Monday, March 13, 2017

Weekend Update and some running stories

This weekend was so rad !!! I have to first say thank you to my husband who loves me and thinks it is so great I love to run  and doesn't mind watching the kids  Saturday mornings and sometimes  that turns into Saturday afternoon.
I feel like we are deep in training for San Diego 100 miler. The miles are getting longer and the runs harder. It is also getting warmer. This weekend was an oh shit and yeah run weekend. Saturday I was up at 4:30 am and in the car by 5 am to get to the mountains by 7am. I had stop for coffee and a bathroom so the ride turns into 2 hours. I was grateful to be there on time and ready to do the training I find to be the hardest.  The Orriflame suffer fest. We run on the PCT for a couple miles and then down the canyon and then up again. 10 miles down and then back up it feels like so much work coming back up. I think that runs like this are so important for mental training if you are training for an ultra. Doing the long hard runs that scare you are the ones that make a difference. That was my oh shit run.. Then Saturday I had the San Diego half marathon . I love this race it was my 6th year running it. I saw a bunch of The Trail crashers before the race and ended up running with a friend Nartaya the entire race. It was a really easy race and I was so surprised I didn't have a-lot of pain. My legs felt better the farther we got into the race and we talked the entire time about our kids and just ran. We ended up with 2:02 and that was great time. I know we could of gone faster but I think both of us just wanted to run at a good pace. That put me at 70 miles for the week and well on my way to the right training I need to finish SD100 . I hope you had a great weekend and happy trails..

Thursday, March 9, 2017

Pirates Cove 12 hour race review

I arrived at Lake Cuyamaca around 7am. That means I left my house at 5:15 am ( The getting up in the morning part not fun) Once I arrived at the start  I was greeted with a good morning by the legend Scott Mills. That is always a good sign. Then I found my friend Julianne she was my Western States pacer and now my trail sister. This was a loop race so I kinda put out what I thought I would need neat the side of the start line and waited to start. Every thing was well planned and the race went of right on time at 8:am.

It was a 1.7 mile loop. It had a small hill and it was not flat. This 1.7 mile stretch had a lot going on and I was grateful for that. This was not a boring course. My dad came out and ran 6 miles with me less than 3 miles 3 loops. I was having a great day just running in circles and hanging out. I never got tired or down I felt super lucky to be able to spend the day outside surrounded by running doing what I love.
I passed this tree 25 times and it never got old.


 My friend Phillip killing it.
I told you the Lake was showing off. I mean look at this picture. It was so so peaceful and pretty. The only part that sucked about the lake was the freezing wind that was coming off of it.

I just kept going and going. It got really cold about this time but I was running until 8 pm so I knew I would only be in the cold for an hour or so. That made it bearable. 

This was a fun race and I am happy I decided to take part in it. I totally recommend running it maybe with some friends. This would make a great first ultra too. SO much fun !!

My friend Becca sent me a text.. Look I got first female in the 12 hour race !!! How cool is that.  Here is what I learned at this race. cryo therapy worked really well for me. I did it the day before the race it totally helped. I went into this race with 4o miles on my legs and my legs where just tired so yes it helped.
I kept eating the entire race and that worked well. I did hatred down tailwind and it worked great. I also like carbo pro but this time I just used the tailwind and I was fine. There you go !! This weekend is a 22/20 weekend. Wish me luck and have a great week .

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Pirates Cove

I was talking to my friend Phillip and he casually mentioned he was running Pirates Cove. I think he is doing the 12 hour run and so I decided it would be a great training run for me too. I have never done this race and it looks like fun. It is a loop course and a bunch of people I know will also be running it so yes I signed up.  I will be going for 50 miles. Time on my feet and I really want to do well at SD100 so practice practice practice.   Have an awesome weekend and I will fill you in the details on my next post.

Monday, February 27, 2017

Training run in the dessert

I slept about 3 hours on Friday night. Jack is sick and his coughing along with just being his mommy kept me up. I ended up getting up at 3 am I contemplated getting ready to run or getting back in bed. I knew when I sat up in bed that running would win. I have learned that when ever I hesitate on a run either because the drive is so long or the weather sucks or I just feel lazy that if I just get ready and leave the house I will have a great day! It usually works that way. I got up and made coffee got ready and looked at the forecast. It said COLD !! 40 and windy :( Then I pack every jacket I own just because having my jackets in the  car helps me feel more ready. 
Our run was the first 18 miles of the Lost Boys course. Can I just say it was really difficult. A total work out. My mantra when running really hard stuff is this is making me stronger. I just say that over and over and over .
We climber boulders that used to be waterfalls and we just kept running. Then I realized that for me this was one of those runs that you get what you put in. It was really pretty out in the dessert and the sky was bright blue. The weather ended up at a perfect 70 degrees . I got to see my friends and yes getting 3 hours of sleep having to leave my house at 4am and being uncomfortably cold at the start of our run was so worth it. This weeks run felt like an adventure. 

Saturday, February 11, 2017

Saturday's training run

Today's run took place in Cuyamaca. We ran 18 miles of the  Orriflame course. It was so cold my teeth kept chattering. Last year when I ran this race my feet where in bad shape and running down the rocky Orriflame course was so painful and it took me forever. I felt running today was a big mental boost I felt way stronger running down and even though I didn't feel great running up hill that is okay because I just ran a 50.  This running lifestyle it is a very good one. Wishing you a very happy Sunday. 

Friday, February 10, 2017

My Lake Hodges 50 miler race report








I woke up 5 times the night before the race and the last time I woke up I yelled, " oh no I missed it I over slept."  My husband kindly told me it is 4 am. I think you're ok. I was nervous because even though I was excited to be a part of such a great event I decided to run it last week so my training could have been better. I know that I would have benefited from doing a couple back to back long runs but I needed just think about the training I have been doing and remember how well I know the course.
 I got to the race 30 minutes early and got my bib #245 got a hug from the race director Paul (awesome human ) then before you know it we where off. Right on time. 









A couple things I loved about this race. The weather  was perfect perfect. I wore a short sleeve running shirt and shorts. I didn't need gloves and I was not hot or cold . It was perfect. The trails where perfectly clean because of all the rain we have been having and everything was green. I felt great at the start. I was running 11 min miles and just stayed at that pace. I met new people and had some fun conversations. I was excited because the Trail Crashers where hosting an aid station 15/35. ( I get to see my friends twice) and  just knowing I get to spend all day running this amazing course Paul set out for us how could I not be happy.








The sun came out briefly and it was mostly over cast. (perfect running weather) There was also an aid station every 5 to 10 miles fully loaded. The aid stations had everything you needed. The course was so well marked (thank you Paul)                                                I felt good and happy most of the time. The hardest miles for me where 43 to 49. I was just tired and my tummy was not happy. I also know that if I would have dome some back to back long runs I would of been mentally better prepared for that I am tired feeling and my body would of pushed a little harder. 










 This was just a great day. I wanted to do better than I did in 2015 . I ran it 10 minutes faster and this is weird but I felt like I was going faster than 2 years ago. The difference is I ran at a consistant pace this year. Instead of running walking I kept it under 12 minute miles for most of the race. Baby steps


 The course is awesome. I was talking to this lady I was running with and she told me she does this race every year and the thing that bothers her is there is to much running on this course. I thought about it for a while and I think what she meant is that its a flat course. I love it ! I love the running part of this whole situation. I loved seeing so many familiar faces and the volunteers are just so good to us runners. I felt like yes the race director likes us he is making sure this race goes of with out a problem and thats what it felt like.















I was so happy to be done. My finishing time was 9 :45 thats my 50 mile PR.  A huge Thank You to Paul Jesse for putting on an excellent race. The voluteers for taking great care of the runners and my running group The Trail Crashers I love them there support makes me try harder and my husband for coming with Jack to the race.