Thursday, December 29, 2011

She Let go

As This year come to an end I am grateful for what I have been through, overcome , created,  the people I have loved and all those moods that make up me. I was hiding and sleeping through so much but thats all over now. I will be 40 next year and I am so excited. I am starting over  and I am ok. I believe our biggest fear is fear itself and if only we just believed in ourselves as much as out best girlfriend does.... well the rest would be amazing...
I was looking for my most favorite read of the year and no its not a book its a quote...

She let go

She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go. She didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.
She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.
She didn’t analyze whether she should let go. She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn’t call the prayer line. She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.
There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
Ernest Holmes
Good Stuff

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas

I hope everyone has a magical Day.
Today is a perfect day to be grateful . Its that day when we look around and feel the love.
There are so many things about the holidays that make it special lets just focus on that.
Merry Christmas

Thursday, December 22, 2011

This week.

I got to wear cute rain boots this week because it rained in San Diego..
My rain boots lead me to my happy place this week.

This week I also decorated my sisters room..I made look so fun and festive and happy.

This week since I don't have my kids I spent as much time as I could with my Angel sister.
I adore my sister..and I can honestly say that I feel so incredibly happy being with her as much as I can..

Sunday, December 18, 2011

My sweet little sister

I am  here at the hospital . I am sitting on a bed we keep in my sisters room. There is always someone here with her. We never leave her alone. She cant talk to tell anyone what is wrong but those of us that love her well we know what she wants. She is an angel that was sent down to this earth why she must suffer so much.. I don't know. I do know that she is here to teach everyone around her about unconditional love. She is love at its best. I have spent more time with her in the last 2 and half months than I have in a long time. When we were little I remember playing with her and how much I liked feeding her. I also remember how much my mom hurt when she needed to have surgery. I recently remembered that when I was younger and I found an eyelash or I blew out my birthday candles I always wished that when I woke up in the morning my little sister would be walking..
I am writing this because I feel that through all of the this the good times and the scary ones..watching my mom cry at children's Hospital because my sister was sick or the times I would play dolls with my sister and she was the doll.  She has taught me true love. I feel I have learned to fully feel. She has taught me empathy and compassion. In the last two weeks I reached out to an old friend to ask if she could also help out here at the hospital but I had to open my heart and forgive to do it..It was a-lot easier than I thought and i feel so much better because of it too. I think my sister is always teaching me. I am grateful for everything she gives me ,,I am grateful to be in her presence. Tonight she is not doing so well so I ask you to keep her in a prayers..


Friday, December 16, 2011

Sea Side by Elena

My girlfriend had another awesome Charity fundraiser..
Sea Side.. I am not really sure how she does it ..but she does an amazing job of putting together these events and raising tons of money for amazing causes. She helps people who really need it.

Did I forget to say that it was also her Birthday..
I had a super time , I won Isabella and Paola some really cute homemade Christmas gifts at the action.

I love how Elena let me keep this cute banner that now is kept over my art Nook...
Have a great weekend and be safe..
no drinking and driving k

Saturday, December 10, 2011

15 days until Christmas

I am very happy because we got our Christmas Tree last night.
First tree in my own house with my fabulous kids
and Carrie brought me my first Christmas present for this season
and I love it..Thank you Carrie..
Have a great Saturday ,I am celebrating my Friends Elena's Birthday Part today.
Life is good.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Have you chosen your word yet?

I was thinking about my word for next year ?
Have you chosen a word yet ?
I credit Ali Edwards for implementing this tradition into my life...
So I am thinking about goals and dreams and yes my word?


Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Here I am..

Here I am..
OK Ladies and just maybe gents..
I have been M I A because I moved out of my old house into my new home..
I am going to be totally honest with this story ready.. set.. go..
I don't know about you but when I read some one's blog I imagine there life is perfect but if I stop and get myself out of my pink world I know everyone has obstacles they need to over come.
I just overcame one of my biggest life obstacles.
I now live in my own house. I am renting but its mine.
I was so afraid to leave my big house on the golf corse but even though it was big, pretty it had so many bad memories. It had so much of him in there even though he was gone.  I am sure I am not the only one who hates change, it's definitely not my favorite thing. I knew I had to move by Dec 1st and I did it. It was not easy.. I cried a-lot got rashes and my insecurity level was at an all time high.. However,  getting out of that space and into this new house has in some way cleansed me. The new house is perfect, very cute and most importantly it's ours. The best part is it all the memories created in this house will be ours.  The positive ones that I am going to create with my kids. Our own magical traditions. I am very excited to start over, be smart, dream and be me. There will be nothing but love in this house.  Oh I almost forgot... guess what this new house has in my new bedroom, a tiny extra room and its going to be my Art Nook.
On this day I am oh so very grateful that somehow I am standing here in this perfect little space.
You know when I got one of my tattoos (a while back) I had the word free tattooed on me, and now it all makes sense...
I am free
no more stomache aches because HE was coming home.
no more trying to find my happy place

no more rashes 
I love my blog and I am feeling really blessed today.
I have the most amazing kids
and now my very own little place I will call home..

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Starting Over..

Starting Over
So in the last 2 months I have gone for a run a hand full of times.
I have gained a little weight but I think what has changed the most is my attitude towards  eating healthy.. I have been caring very little. Running helps me get my health back on track. When I used to run in the morning I just felt healthier and I think I made  my entire day better. I know I felt a-lot happier.. So for the last 2 weeks or so I have been trying to get my butt out of bed by 6 am..( not happening) but this morning I did it . I got up and I ran. I was slow but that does not really matter because running is like everything else the more you do it the better you get. I was thinking on my run how maybe if I post about my runs for the next couple weeks Ill get back into it.
My blog will give me accountability.
This morning I got up and talked myself into going for a short run. My first mile was slow 12 minute mile slow. Then I just kept at it and 6 miles later I was done. I ran 11 minute miles..
That leaves me lots of room for improvement.
So I plan on improving my runs for the next couple of weeks..
Just had to share.
Have a great Day !!

Monday, November 21, 2011

This song makes me dance..

Don't you love it when a song makes you dance..
This song makes me dance everytime..

Friday, November 18, 2011

Starting again....

Tomorrow  morning I am going to get up early and go for a semi long run with my dad. Its been a little over 2 months since I have really ran. I have been keeping my beautiful sister company and its been great but I miss running too. I am going to run tomorrow and the day after even if that means getting up early..and tomorrow s run wont be fun it will be hard but that's OK because it will lead me to a good place in a couple months. I am going to get myself healthy and happy and I am going to start tomorrow...

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I took a sewing class ! and I loved it !

I was blog surfing the other day . I had Isabella sitting with me and I looked at this super cute skirt this girl said she made and I thought I want to make a skirt too... so I googled sewing classes in San Diego and found this cute little sewing store Home EccStudio
that teaches How to make a skirt class!!!!
I was so excited I signed up and next thing you know ...There I was taking a sewing class and making my own skirt. I was a little nervous thinking I might not have enough time to finish it. The teacher was very patient and knowledgeable and the other students were very sweet. It was a cozy class room and I rate this cute little store 4 stars. I was able to keep up and I finished my skirt in about 2 hours :) I am very proud of myself.
So you know what I a thinking about right? Making a skirt for Isabella and Paola and my cute nieces.
I love being a girl and loving all things girly!!!
So I was thinking what is your favorite thing you learned to make this year or what was your favorite class, on line classes totally count?

Sunday, November 13, 2011

The Space Between part 3

I made some wonderful friends at this retreat.  It’s so cool to show up at a new place and put ones self out there.  Although I was scared, I learned that most of the girls there were feeling the same way as me, AWE. They were also looking forward to making new friends.  Within no time at all everybody was sharing their story on what led them to the retreat.  Telling us all about their interest, their family and how much they love Art.
How Art has healed them or openned up parts of them they had forgot excisted. How happy they are to be here… Just like ME!!!

Art retreats are the BEST!!!  They help you grow and nurture your inner being. I really liked Patty's retreat.  I added her blinkie to my blog, if you want to check it out and spend a weekend in the mountains with your girlfriends painting and journaling...
In A LOVING environment
Hope you had a great weekend.

Friday, November 11, 2011

The Space between part 2

The Space Between Part 2...
So after we all settled in and got to know each other Bonnie made some wonderful cookies.  Then we got into the art part of the retreat. Patty led us in some wonderful exercises and showed us some fun art journaling tricks.

This is our art table... It looks like candy don't you think? Everyone was in a great place playing with words and paints, coloring and sharing our creations.  It was a perfect day.  Getting started is my favorite part of the creating process with friends. I especially like the noise associated with the hustle and bustle…  I also love the part right after we have been taught something new when the room gets quite because everyone has found their creative art tingle…
I found this quote and thought it was perfect for what I was feeling.
All true artists, whether they know it or not, create from a place of no-mind, from inner stillness.
::: Eckhart Tolle ::: 
Here is my creation...
I call it
"Sweet Spirits..."

My Girlfriend created this sweet page of her husband and daughter in her art journal… She loves purple and she loves glitter and it is evident in her work of Art… There is so much in love in art... I will share pictures of the wonderful ladies I meet tomorrow.