Thursday, January 30, 2014

Simple and True

"Always remember deep in your heart that all is well and everything is unfolding as it should. There are no mistakes anywhere, at any time. What appears to be wrong is simply your own false imagination. Perfection knows nothing about wrong and right, good and bad, happy and sad. It knows only itself as Perfection. And you are That." ~Robert Adams

Monday, January 27, 2014

Monday Blues

I find myself to be in a sweet and salty place. I had many dreams of races I wanted to run this year but my hip is not feeling like its going to heal anytime soon. I might be feeling like that because I am right in the middle of it. They told me it was muscle strain of the thigh or we could use the fancy term Tensor fascia lata syndrome.  Its just a very annoying pain that gets worse the more I walk but I can't stop walking so I just deal with it. I am feeling sad because running is what I do to deal with stress and it helps me deal with life. I also have all theses races I signed up for that I am afraid I won't be able to run. The good thing is my dad will happily use my bibs. I also feel left out of a world I love. Left out of my sweet little running world. I have dates with my dad that revolve around running and they are what I look forward to the most when it comes to just me . ( I say that because my kids are first ) but outside of them and just me its running with my dad. I will keep you posted with my progress..I find myself faking it till I make it and Create a smile.. is my motto for this week..

Friday, January 24, 2014

sweet coffee please

I am just loving these colors right now.. They are so happy and sweet. I feel like she is thinking about how good things are right now. Her house is clean and her coffee has cream .Her family is healthy so her life right now looks like this picture..

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Color of mom

An exciting thing happened to me on the way to the store as I was driving along  I  had a light bulb moment. I think I am maturing or as someone told me getting motherly . I saw this mom walking with her kids and I totally got it and accepted the fact that I don't really want to anything else right now except be a good mom to my kids and take care of my hip thing . I would be lying if I did not mention that I still can not run and yes its super frustrating and I am so jealous of people that can and I miss it level 100 . I can't run at all it just hurts but I am starting physical therapy Friday and I am focusing on exercising my arms and core for now. So the whole mommy feeling..I want to talk about that. I often feel like I don't want to become boring or I do not dress up anymore because my days are spent driving to school and driving to YMCA. I guess I am a little afraid of becoming nothing more than a mom. I know I am way more than that but I feel if I take out the running from my life whats left is the mom in me and that's it..When I was watching that mom walking with her kids I understood that she was way more than just there mom she was also a bunch of other things.. I am other things beside a runner . I am an artist and a sister . I am a role model and a best friend. I do know that my most important part I am playing in this life right now is taking care of my kids but its just good to remember that I am more than a mom.
I am also super inspired right now by cuteness. I am on my third girl and I can't wait to show you. I told myself I would paint one a week and so far I am doing well. They are so cute. I can't wait to finish my third one tomorrow and I will show you all four next week. I miss writing on my blog so you might find some random stories here in the next few days that because I need to get back in the swing of posting in my little piece of the Internet..

Sunday, January 12, 2014

Not a run but a bike ride

There was a -lot of frustration and crying that went on before I went on what turned out to be a great bike ride. I really can not run right now. I run for 10 minutes and my hip starts to hurt. It hurts to the point that I really have to stop. All I can really say is that the whole situation breaks my heart. I feel the best when I am running. I feel free. I always imagine that when a bird is in flight it must feel the same way. That's where the idea of my bird tattoo came from. Running flying it must feel the same right ? I tried running Friday but it hurt after 1 mile. I was so upset I cried and cried some more.  I am getting x-rays tomorrow and I hope to be able to figure out what is going on so I can get back to running.
Meanwhile I have to do something physical that's hard so I asked my dad to go on a bike ride with me so we toured San Diego. It was fun and it was hard. We rode for about 30 miles and my butt was sore. My poor dad fell but thank goodness he was fine. We even got on a ferry to go from Coronado to Downtown. The best part about the ride was that we mostly rode on a bike path and that my dad and I got to change it up a bit. I asked him if he wanted to go swimming in La Jolla next week but he said the water is to cold and it is. It was a great saturday and we rode for a long time and that made me happy..If I can't run then I will bike… I want to stay positive and optimistic about the entire situation..I hope you got to go outside this weekend.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Learning from other artist

Hi and guess what I finally was able to make up my mind . I have been looking around to see witch online art class I wanted to take . I decided on StudyingUnder the masters . Go here to get more info
I read what Danielle had to say about it and that was enough to convince me that this would be a good course for me. It starts in one week and I am excited to learn from other amazing artist I admire like Danielle. I am even more excited to get practice under there guidance. I will keep you posted.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Tuesday Talks

Last two days have felt hard. I feel like I have a-lot to do and not a lot of time to do it in. It feels a little bit like I am on fast forward. I don't like it. I love how having these little people grounds me to what is important right now..Being a mom
Its funny because I feel I am right where I am supposed to be. Cleaning dirty diapers and making lunches. Its amazing to me looking back how being 41 has brought with it much wanted security and maturity. I am there mom and going to swim practice everyday is my favorite thing to do. I am ok with getting up in the middle of night to feed my tiny one and I don't even mind my 19 year old Miss P asking me for money any more. What happened ??
I mean look at the happiness in these faces .For me right now thats where its at. Making sure all of my kids feel safe and loved. I was not very good at school but man I am good at loving those kids..Its funny how passion hits you in different times and mine right now is pointing toward my kids...

Monday, January 6, 2014

Weekend in Pictures

We had our mini Adventure this Saturday. It turned out way better than I would of thought. Our friends joined us and no one complained. Thats huge. We went on a 7 mile hike not to much but its enough that the kids still enjoy there time running around and they will agree to come back soon if you keep it doable.The view are amazing. We hiked part of the Pacific Crest Trail. I think its just amazing when you stand at the edge of a mountain and just see this amazing beautiful world we live in.

Here we are our little group out for the day. A huge majority of the trail was burnt down so there was a lot of black sad trees. I asked my dad how long it would take to grow back and he said when he was in high school part of Cuyamaca burnt down and it still has not grown back.

I grew up in San Diego and I used to think I was a beach girl but I was wrong I am definitely and mountain lover. One I do get a little scared swimming in the ocean and after watching shark week well that put me over the edge. 
Here I could run forever and be happy...

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Happy 2014

I have chosen my word for 2014.
I want to focus on having new experiences.  Having fun with my kids and trying new foods . My biggest thing is going to be to be outside as much as I can. Take at least one long hike a month and many little ones. I want to be adventurous within my being. I want to love better and I want to just forgive. Let go of the past and move forward. Whats your word and how will you manifest it in your life. I will make mine happen by planning out my Adventures here. 

I wanted to leave you with these words by Doctor Seuss

Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."
With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find any
you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course,
you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there
in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen
and frequently do
to people as brainy
and footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,
don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along.
You'll start happening too.