Monday, January 31, 2011

Happy Monday to you..

This song made me feel Great...Hope it does the same for you..G


Happy Monday Dear Friends
I spent yesterday with my kids just hanging out at our
house doing what we do...
make paper dolls

I just love how we all migrate to the table in the kitchen and
begin. I painted a Mexican girl. she is drying. I bought a cheap set of oil paints from Micheal's
and I played.
This is the pencil drawing of what I wanted to paint.
I also put lots of hearts around her because I have been feeling like I am in a bubble of hearts.
I am really happy to be in love and more happy that Mr. Joe as my daughter calls him is such a great
boyfriend. I feel really lucky and grateful.
I hope you have a great Monday. Can you believe January is almost gone..
I am back to running and its strange how i feel I haven't been my happy person and i am saying not exercising regularly is a huge part of it. I have asked my dad for help with watching my kids so I can run and he said yes..
Peace to you my sweet friends..

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

a day in the life of me.

Here it is my day..
I saw my dad
I saw my two girlfriends
I saw Joe ( the man I love )
I ran
tried on 3D glasses
all in all a good day...
Oh yeah and i went to Micheal's..

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I'm loving this song

I am so loving closing my eyes and just listening to this song..I am traveling in my head to cloudy happy place..
such Bliss...
Close your eyes and listen..Do you feel it just special perfect thoughts...

Friday, January 21, 2011

A day in the life

I woke up with my camera next to me in bed...It must of gotten cold during the night so she crawled up here to be with me. So I decided to see if I could take enough pictures in one day to do a mini album...A day in the life of me...Holy Cow !! I might be talking best seller here..So tomorrow , ok maybe not tomorrow but sunday for sure...I hope to share my day with you.
Stay tuned ....

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Oh !!! Drawing Journal..

Oh..How love my love my drawing journal ..It doesn't talk back to me..
or tell me to go on a diet.
Its just is there for me to draw in whenever I want.
I love drawing . I love drawing girls.
They let you create whatever you want in them. They let you write stories, The possibilities are endless.
I can copy pictures of any artist I like in my handy dandy journal and
Its all OK because its my drawing journal..
Thank You ..Thank you Mr. drawing journal for being such a great part of my life..Oh how I love you.....

Sunday, January 16, 2011

The Journal Obsession

I know there are lots of girls like me out there. You know the type of girl who get this incredible feeling inside of her when she buys a new journal. The kind of girl who doesn't care if its a 20 dollar journal or a 2 dollar journal?
What really matters to this girl is the never ending possibilities of what she could write in the journal. Draw in this journal. What story she could tell in this journal.

maybe this is the journal that has the perfect poem or thought or quote or Idea. This could be the journal that explains it all.
The journal that has the perfect love letter or it has your dreams and goals. I love me a journal and I have a new one for 2011.
Yes, it makes me feel a little like I am in high school. It makes want to sharpen my pencil. I even feel like I have my fun secrets inside of it, Tid bits of words ,ideas that make me unique. My question is do you just love journals too?
Do they make you as happy as they make me ?
I sure hope they do....
"Imagination is the biggest beginning of creation: You imagine what you desire:You will what you imagine; and at last you create what you will."
George Bernard Shaw

Friday, January 14, 2011

The movie I watched last night

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I watched this movie with Joe last night. I have seen it before but I think I could watch it many more times . I just love how passionate Frida was about her life. She felt it all her art is full of pain but in color witch I think just makes it so vivid and alive. One of the things I love so much is how traditionally Mexican she dressed. I love the feel of the blue houses in the movies with the yellow trim. I love the braids in her hair. Her art feels sad to me but so intense and beautiful. I think I can see a small window into what she went through by looking at her paintings. I can feel her pain. Did you know she did so many self portraits because she was alone so much that she would study herself and paint her best model...herself
If you haven't seen the movie you should go rent it. Its really good. I really like it..
Happy Weekend

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

I let go

I begin by letting myself be aware of my faults
I begin by not judging myself
I begin by slowly forgiving myself
I begin by letting go and not trying to hold on
I begin by understanding its OK to feel this way
I begin by understanding I cant be perfect
I begin by letting myself sit
I begin by knowing I will slowly begin to shift
I begin by once again by forgiving myself
I begin by putting away my fear
I begin by loving myself just as I am Today
Imperfectly Perfect.

Have you ever felt like this part of you was waking up inside of you .
This is my experience of what is going on inside of me at this time. I don't know if it's maturing or what I really feel like is that there is a part of me that's always been their but I was afraid to let out. So, I chose to let her hide . I am in the process of not letting my story define me. I have a really good story that when I felt sorry for myself (witch I am sure I will do again ) or maybe when I wanted an excuse for why I am the way I am I would tell. I am slowly emerging from that. I am not my story . Yes, because of my past I have become who I am . I understand that. I guess what I am trying to say is just because certain things happened in my life does not mean I am weaker or damaged. It just means certain things happened. How I am choosing to react to my past will define me.
I think when unhappy things happen when we are children to us, or when we let ourselves continue in unhealthy relationships we ..I am going to speak about just me so I will be shifting this to I.. instead of we. I can only speak for myself and hope this helps someone out there.
I have used my story as a crutch for a long time. I have felt deep sadness because of it, I understand that. I feel that I am at a point in my life were I am choosing to let go of it. I am not going to pretend that its all OK. Life is not always all OK.
Life was not meant to always be OK. I am choosing to really take a look at the not OK part and let it go. When life has handed me more than I think I can handle, first thing I do is pray.
I believe in God. I have faith that good things happen to good people so when life hands me a little to much I hand some over to him . This is what that sound like in my head.
Dear God,
I don't feel like I am going to get through this. I don't understand why all of this is happening at once. I know you wont hand me more than I can handle but I am really overwhelmed right now so I am gong to put some of this in your hands and I know you will help me carry it. Then I just have complete faith that no matter what happens since hey than man upstairs is helping me carry it . I will be OK with what ever happens.
Yes, so faith carries me a very long way.
So, back to letting go of stuff that holds us down. I am at the point were holding on is no longer working for me. I need to move passed it and I do not pretend it did not happen if anything it makes me more empathetic to peoples pain. We all have struggles I get that but man its so nice to see the light at the end of the tunnel now that its time for me to let go. The other thing is trusting my own intuition or listening to that voice inside me that's giving me permission to let go. Loving myself enough to want to be an emotionally healthy female. That's the big thing right. I love my kids ,I love my family , I am in love with Joe. Yes, I have lots of love just like I am sure you do but I need to love myself enough to emotionally pay attention to what I am feeling and nurture myself . This way I can have a much healthier relationship with my kids, my boyfriend , my family and most importantly.... Myself
This is me just as I am... sharing my thoughts my word and my story...
Big Smile,

Monday, January 10, 2011

Welcome 2011

Hello Sweet friends...
I have been away for a much needed Gloria break. Lots happened the week of New Years and I think I am settled inside with all of it. So as the saying goes...
Today is the perfect Day to start over...
I have realized that two of my kids do this when I try to kiss them.
I have been crocheting some as this does tend to help me Chill...
I started painting and I stopped half way because the girl I was painting..well she kinda scares me...I think I am going to put some cute scrapbook paper all over her pretty little face and start over.
I have been going to work..( still a weird thing ) work.
I have been journaling some. I do have to say that one of my highlights of the new year (besides kissing Joe at midnight) was starting my new Kelly-Rea date book...Love
I have also had a-lot of much needed family time. I am not talking about my kids, I am taking about me needing my mom and sister..Sometimes only your mom will do.
I also have ran just a little bit but its enough for me to see that I love to run and its good for me.
I am so crazy about my word too.. Brave
I am going to not let fear stop me to many times...
I will try hard to be Brave in the face of fear and when I am not or when fear wins I will simply recognize what that felt like. What just happened and push myself a little harder next time.
Hope you have a good week..and do you have your word yet ?
Big Smile, G