November days

This is me the month of November. Nothing really big or exciting just day by day simple Joys. These are the things that fill my brain and some sweet memories I will hold close to me. I am working on my December daily and this project is one I really love. It makes me want to plan dates with my loved ones in the month of December and somehow this project of collecting stories of my life it makes it brighter and more sparkly. I am also taking
Ali Edwards class that goes along with this project and its really gets you creative juices moving.
My kids are all taking music lessons and the house seems happier with so many instruments being played. Even though there not great I love the noise they make. The funny thing is I don't really care how good they are . I stand in the hall listening and its perfect to me. Life is moving so quickly that I keep thinking about getting a tattoo that says BE HERE. The days are long but the years are short. I don't want to miss it.
Oh Frida I think about her all the time. I love that she never gave a fuck what anyone thought of her awesomeness..
Oh I found a pink egg and quickly made brownies from scratch with it so it would taste extra yummy.
My running is off right now. These months suck for me. I am off so I make myself run at least 5 miles 6 days a week. This week was different because I had serious dental work done. As I type this I have 7 stitches in my mouth. (oouucchh)  I still ran 5 miles today slow but I just don't want to lose my running mojo You know what I mean.
Then there was a friends giving I went to that was a blast. I love my running friends there my bestest peeps. I even played Jenga
That is me right now. A little bit of this and that and I gotta love it!
Wishing you a full rich weekend with your loved ones. 

Lightening the load..

My friend Carrie is taking a class. The Summer of Love by Kara H. This picture was a homework assignment given out in the class and Carrie did a great job capturing the light. She is a very creative girl and we have had fun hanging out lately....Thanks for the picture C.

I have been in a somewhat quite place. I have been feeling somewhat still inside. I think it started with the cleaning..We all do laundry and dishes and clean and clean and clean..If you walked into my house you would say I was fibbing...Gloria you need to clean !!! but I have, but you cant tell , well I cant tell either...but I have been Lightening my load...The drawers are sparse and you can see the floors of all the closets..My belongings and those of my kids are slowly becoming less...I have to admit it feels great..My left side of my brain goes like this...Gloria you might need that..Its so cute, Christopher gave you that paperclip for your birthday ..save it. My right side tells me...Gloria ,please throw that away. You don't need it. Christopher is OK with it too...(he was 3 and I don't think he remembers) OK.. you get it..Let go of the little paperclips. This does not mean let go of the memories ..no way Jose..This means that I am finding that by giving away, throwing out and being much more selective of stuff I bring into my house ..I am more at peace...It becomes easier for me to be more aware of what is important to me..We all know whats important to us..but to consciously look for those moments in out everyday life is harder..I think the de-cluttering of my house has put me in a still and more grounded space..

Right now I am feeling like I have so much to think about...because I have let go of so much. I am looking into the empty drawers of my life only to find they are full..of unexpected joy ,friendships and love. Was all this goodness there the whole time but my drawers were to full of paperclips for me to see....or was I holding on to all the crap in there and feeling sorry for myself

That I was completely closed off to what would could be in my drawers...(I am not sure).but I do know this ..somehow I am understanding that blaming others for the crap in my closets does not work..It only makes me feel worse and others around me feel bad for me. I don't want that..I am learning that the cleaning of my house, and my mind and letting go of the blame in my past is so healing... after all I am a consistent work in progress..My tomorrow is what I make it. I can choose to believe in myself or not. I must keep trying always to better myself ...If I choose to get stuck in the past or not..That's My choice...to believe that if I consciously try to work on myself ... by Letting go of the past so that I can be here .. fully present for today..this moment...then I am OK...better that OK...happy!!!!

A woman sees what she looks for -Barbara Jenkins,author