I will miss you My Sweet Lillie

My little sister passed away last night. Yes, she was really sick for a very long time and I know that. I want to share a little about my sister. She was an angel and God sent her to us to bless our lives. She has a beautiful smile that came from with in. She taught me to be gentle and to be empathetic. She opened my heart in a way no one else could and when I ran I ran for her all the time. I knew she was home sitting in that wheel chair and somehow I took her with me. I carried her in my heart. Oh my sweet Carmen how you will be missed.

I love her little hands. They where soft and sweet. She had a great laugh and loved dancing in bed . She loved putting on make up and getting her nails done. Like all girls.

Carmen always loved me and I knew that. When I was little and I felt alone or heart broken just getting in her crib and holding her healed me in so many ways. When she was little and could talk she would say yoya. Thats me. She was 37 years old and she is my sister and now she is gone but I will carry her in heart forever and she has made me a better person. She always did.. I love you Carmen. 

She is home now

My little sister was in the hospital this past weekend and lucky for us yesterday she came home. She is doing well and she seemed to be in a good spirits. So today instead of going to spend the the day at the hospital (boring) her and I and maybe jenny will join us . We will be crafting... Have a great day.

Quick update..

Great News..My little sister came home on Friday..
How happy are we...very happy!!!I honestly thought we were going to lose her..but God is good and she is home..so after 5 months in the hospital at this moment ..  she is going through my wallet in her room...
and I am a very happy big sister !!!xoxo
G

Where I am right now...

Tonight I am here sitting in my sister’s hospital room watching her and hoping that she recovers. I am staying here tonight to give my mom a chance to sleep because she has been here every night.  I have not been doing much outside of my kids and being here with my sister. I feel that I am exactly were I am supposed to be. I find that to be a wonderful thing. I adore my little sister and I pray for her and my mom.  As a mother I can’t imagine what my mother is feeling as she watches what my sister is going through.  Than there is my sister who doesn’t have the ability to tell us how she’s feeling.  It’s amazing how much we are willing to do for others. Some how me showing up to see her brightens up her day...  Sometimes I feel selfish, all wrapped up in my emotions of the day my sister is teaching me to listen and to think out side of my world.  It’s a blessing to be by her side every day, what a great life lesson.  I love holding Carmen’s tiny hands. She had a tough day.   After she had her feeding tube removed and then they tried to get her to eat applesauce.  She passed her swallowing test but when they fed her food it went into her lungs and that consequently made her sick again.  My sister loves food so not eating sucks for her.  Sadly he had to have the feeding tube put back in and that entire process must really hurt because she was not a happy camper. I told her you have to get some food in you so you can get better so you need this tube... She was probably thinking... OK G you try having some strange doctor stick a huge tube up your nose...the whole experience was bad.

I keep thinking about what to write or what to say on my blog. At this time I think asking you to keep Carmen in your prayers is what we need.  I will keep you updated.  Maybe next week I will bring my camera to the hospital and when I walk out to grab a bite to eat I’ll find some cool things to take pictures of.  Then the two of us can make a scrapbook, YEAH…  That might be a cute little project. Oh I have a Polaroid maybe ill do something with that, too.  Do you know of any Sept challenges?  I am sure there out there.  I have all night so I will surf the Internet and look.

OK my friends I will write soon.

G

xoxo