Growth...

The feeling can sometimes be overwhelming...We feel small in such a big universe...
Then without thinking about it we begin to slowly reveal our color and our beauty
Next step would be to just let yourself grow don't fight it just go with it..its a little scary..
but what I am hoping for in the end for all of us is this... Growth

So Yummi...

I hope you can some yummi..candy today....

Its a candy kind of day...

My Honest Tuesday..

Here we are...

We are found, We are lost..

We laugh ,we cry..

We are not alone and I know that ..We all go through insane roller coaster of life just trying to find that happy moment that makes it so worth it...It lies in our children's smiles it lies in the way he spoons with you, the little bit of heaven we create on a canvas if only to make our own hearts sing. Its in that constant movement forward in that hope that must not leave our hearts ever..Hope to love and be loved ..Hope to make what we broke better if not for us then for our kids but really for ourselves to heal what hurts and to keep moving forward,,

Our hope lies in the sunrise that will be here tomorrow to let us know we are alive and all is OK..We must never give up on ourselves..because we are beautiful inside and out ..because we make a difference in so many people lifes..because we matter ....when things look bad and your heart hurts ..reach for those who love you , there wanting to hold you..they too need to love you..don't give up on life and it wont give up on you....

Love always,

Gloria

Pink Ninja Monday

Bella,
Sweet and simple...

Little girls in pink tutus

Little girls in Pink leotards

Little girls who dream of becoming ballerinas

make all mommies heart smile with joy..

what could be better that this moment looking at you....

mom

Pink Ninja addicts...

Rosarito to Ensenada little vidoe...

The Bike Ride was so much fun..

I had a blast!!!!! I woke up on time and then started my day of with coffee...I went upstairs to get dressed and guess what...Well I don't have a washing machine right now so Ive been washing my workout clothes by hand because its easy and I use it everyday..well anyway I washed my cycling shirt and I put it in the dryer because I didn't have time to let it air dry...well when I tried it on guess what it super duper shrunk...yes its now Isabella's shirt..so now I had no looking cool cycling shirt...what to do...I have these super orange argyle socks my friend Carrie gave me and I had an orange and white stripe shirt so there you go...fun kinda dorky but suddenly I am more excited about everything ..outfit included....
I was a little nervous about going down to Mexico but it felt really safe once we got there..Its only about and hour and half drive from my house...I picked up my dad dropped of my kids with my mom and that was that..next thing to do was register and find my cousin...after many callas we found each other...This is my cousin Pepe..totally fun sweet guy..I had not seen him in over a year...We all started of together...dad, cousins his peeps and me...

After ten miles or so I took off..and I listened to the Doors..can you picture this ..beautiful country...The Doors in my ears playing my song...Gloria....and the wind in my face..I felt free and so blessed ..I was living the dream...
It went pretty fast , the hills were good not to high just enough to make me break a sweat...The sun was pretty bright ..and I did not put enough sun screen on...My son told me this morning..mommy it looks like someone tattooed your shirt on your back...its a sun burn buddy...
Here we are after party time baby....My dad does not drink so I had beer for both of us...

It was perfect day...My dad did it in 3:45 and I did it in 3:30...
I have to say I really like riding my bike...almost as much as running:0)

Turn it Up

Here we go!!!!!

Its another adventure for Dad and me.....He knows if I don't go with her she will go alone..I would and I have but I am so happy he is coming with me. It makes me happy to have mini adventure with some company...I wish I could get him some big ass trophy that sais best you are the best dad ever...some girls are Lucky enough to do this stuff with their boyfriend or husband,,,I am luckier because I am doing it with my dad and you cant break up with your dad.
so off we go to MEXICO !!!!!!!! have a great Saturday.....

The Bike Ride

I am really excited about my Saturday plans...My dad and I are doing the Rosarito Ensenada bike ride...50 miles of blissfulness..(is that a word?) Yes, we will be riding our bike for a couple of hours in Mexico..How cool...I hope to be this happy when I am done....but I am sure my butt will be hurting..I cant wait to see what stories i will have to tell...

My cousin will be joining us or better yet I will be joining him..OK so this is my cousin that I lived with in Mexico for a while when I was little.We are the same age and we really get along well.His mom was my birth mothers older sister but she died very young so my grandmother took care of both of us .His name is Pepe..cute hu...He is one funny guy...
OK..here's a little story that goes with me and this race...The first time I did this race was in 1997..My first husband had been gone for four months and I was living with his mom and dad..It was a very sad time in my life so I got a bike because I wanted to ride..I remember how good it felt to just ride and have the wind in my face ..I loved the feeling of leaving ..This is what I mean when I have felt really sad I tend to stay home or in this case his mothers house..I love the feeling of running away on foot or riding away from that place on a bike..Its not the same in a car for me..I need to psychically leave a place to be able to come back with a different perspective on whats going on..I need to move and go and go..I love that feeling of moving my body riding away knowing I wont come back the same..Oh I know ..It stills my brain..It does it gets me to that place meditation gets other people..It helps me get what matters and what does not...stuff does not matter ,people matter...

back to the ride...My father in law told me there was a 50 mile bike ride in 3 days...He knew I would be excited to do it but I had only had the bike for a couple of days and I was a complete riding dork..( i kinda am now too) I just pretend I am cool :0) and I had not rode a bike for more that 15 min in years...so I knew I probably could not do it ,I went to a bike shop and asked what the time limit was..I have never had a problem with coming in last. I just wanted to finish..I had 8 hours...I could do that right...My father in law said if you finish that bike ride I will give you 100 dollars...That was that...I got some new tennis shoes some snickers bars and off I went ..It took me 5 hours, I got a major sun burn but I had the time of my life...I was the dorkiest but happiest 24 years old out there..well after I got home that day I slept for a whole day straight..I had so much fun..I will for sure post all about this saturdays ride..I cant wait ..to share.

My peeps...

Its been a family month for me so far..maybe because I need them a-lot right now. I believe that when you lose something good or bad you are more aware of what you have..You are more in tune with who needs you, loves you and just likes being around you..The people who are stepping up to the plate . Sometimes its the person you least expected from the people who have been around you forever to a completely new friends who have gone through something similar..My mom has been a huge rock for me. I just want to be around her,even if its watching her drink coffee at her desk . I feel protected by her..My sis has been a good confidant for me..She tells me reach out G...call me ...all the time..its nice..Here we are a bunch of my crew..This is only a third you should see all the babies we have made..10 grandchildren so far...We all found out that we are having a new member join us...
See the girl with the beautiful long hair...My sister in law who is just so special is having a GIRL..
My grandmother is 89 and here she is telling my brother about a dream she had that it was going to be a girl....and she was right..she also said next he is having twin boys....we will see...
Yes its girl....yellow dress and all..so my sister in law found out went to the baby store and told the cashier pack open this envelope and don't tell me what it says but pick a boy outfit or a girl outfit wrap it for me..charge it and ill be back to get it in a couple minutes...Then she opened the box in front of all of us...so we all found out together....its a girl....

I am so grate full with every inch of my being that I belong in this house with these people I could not ask for anything more than to be loved by them.....

Little People

My sister has some really cute kids...Twins and a little boy and one is missing..She is busy and I am just plain lucky to have these little people in my life...

Pink Ninja Monday

This is a layout I made using The Pik Ninja Accidentally Kelly April kit...I really do appreciate when I can make a layout for both a boy and a girl with the same kit..Thats not always possible..Have a great Monday..and I am going to try really hard this week to smile...Thats what I love about mondays you get to start over....
love...Glor

Sunday Music

happy sunday...

My aunts back yard..

while the earthquake happened last week I was at my aunts house taking pictures o her pretty flowers while my kids swam in her pool...They did not feel a thing and I thought it was actally really cool....I am on my way to pick up my teenager from the airport...have a great friday...

She let go....

She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions
swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of
all the 'right' reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn't ask anyone for advice. She didn't read a book on how to let go. She didn't search
the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go
of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of
the calculations about how to do it just right.
She didn't promise to let go. She didn't journal about it. She didn't write the projected date in
her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn't
check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.
She didn't analyze whether she should let go. She didn't call her friends to discuss the matter.
She didn't do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn't call the prayer line. She didn't
utter one word. She just let go.
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one
thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.
There was no effort .There was no struggle. It wasn't good and it wasn't bad.It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go,She let it be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her.
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
Ernest Holmes

What I am thinking about...

OK, so I am so in adoration of this color right now....Mabeline mint..$3.50 at CVS.. Hello ..cheap happiness in the shade of mint ..Do you see my ring..My mom gave it to me..My hands felt naked and it made me sad to look at them and see no ring..so I asked my mom if I could barrow a ring and she gave this one ..It kind of looks like a turtle..I think that's perfect because I see myself as a turtle..I hide when I need too..I walk ( run) a long way..I am slow to react..I am loyal...I would be a perfect turtle...
I have been feeling a-lot lately..How about you? I feel like there is a-lot happening on this earth. I am Happy then sad and I feel like I am getting my head out of the sand...yikes!!I have learned this... its never as bad as we think its going to be...I always think this.. Oh!!! my..here we go and then guess what its not so bad,,but I do have to stop hiding to experience this...I have to come out of my shell..I am trying really hard to let myself be seen..Its kinda weird when you've been in hiding or so long , also I was married for 10 years and then I AM not. I have a whole new respect for people who go through this..I had no idea how crazy emotionally hard it was to go through it...I am on the other side now and I am proud to say I am going to be OK..I have met some people along my new path that are amazing souls..People who don't mind feeling...So here I am..most of the time happy and most of the time crying..but its good I am getting or going or moving somewhere..I am definitely moving in some kind of forward direction..and guess what I am not closing my eyes...My lesson learned is I am not going to give up on myself and neither should you..this is what we have one life and we have each other...so lets blog!!!!!!

That's supposed to be funny..ha ha ....no really I just believe that we all deserve our happily ever after and I don't think we can plan for it I think life just happens..Key thing is we have to be willing to let it happen .That means take chances and be willing to fall and get hurt..but that's OK..because if you don't fall then how can we get up and be wiser and stronger and present..That's key ..being present ...to love ,care for, nurture, learn experience and love...( I LOVE LOVE )

I am here hurting too and laughing but not giving up...so lets not give up together..OK

yours truly,

Gloria

Pink Ninja Tuesday?

I made this layout using the Accidentally Kelly Street kit from the Pink Ninja Addicts April Kit..I love the paper the ribbons and the alphas..The girls just did a really nice job..How do you know if its a good kit...Inspiration baby !!!!!!!seriously the layouts and projects just come to you...um um um...paper yumminess at its best....

Happy Easter.

Happy Easter

I hope you have a wonderful Easter..Here is my Easter basket Carrie made for me...Thank you..Our wonderful girlfriends over at the Pink Nina Addicts are running a really good special so go check it out...4 kits for 1 price.....