a little something we should tell ourselves..

Family

Here it is...This is my family...My 3 kids, my dad and I..My children attend year round school so today is there last day and then they are on summer vacation..I have a 15 year old and 9 year old and a 7 year old...Holy cow man...there growing up so fast..I wish they would stay little for a bit longer.Time goes by fast..so I know my blogging has slowed down a bit. Lots has happened..Paola broke her arm at the movies... yes at the movies....
My dad and I did an 15k in Coronado on the 4Th of July. It was a great..We got there on time and I had my am /pm coffee..It was overcast and not to hot either..I ran it pretty fast for me .My dad also kicked butt...and this is my first time I have ever liked the shirt they gave away..They were very nice...here we are in front of the very fancy Dennys...

My wonderful Isabella is so sweet and cute and smart..Lets see tonight before she went to sleep she told me that two boys had crushes on her..So I asked her if she thought she would just keep them both as friends because she is only 7...She said Oh no mommy!!!my heart has already begun to tell me which one I would like to keep...Yup..my sweet bella...
My sweet Christopher..lets just say we had a challenging week ..Here he is at the pie eating contest,He didn't win but he thought he did..
I hope you have a great weekend ..and maybe we will get sunshine in San Diego this weekend.

My little Garden

I have created a little world that makes me so happy...when I look at my little garden that has little trolls and with there mushrooms they sleep under...The little frog that protects them the cute plastic turtle my mom bought for me...The cute little prayer flag Bella made for our house, I take a deep breath and smile..Have you created a little place were you let your heart and imagination go..

You don't have to decide what you are going to be , ever.

You can be something different everyday if you want..

-Lorie Anderson.

What will you be today?

me...a mom , a cook just for fun because I am not very good at it but heck ,I try..an artist because it fills me. An comedian to 3 little kids that love it when I rap and on Fridays we rap. A taxi driver who owns her car..because we have Dr.appointments today, school and a field trip..A student because I have so much to learn..and an athlete..why not!!!

Lightening the load..

My friend Carrie is taking a class. The Summer of Love by Kara H. This picture was a homework assignment given out in the class and Carrie did a great job capturing the light. She is a very creative girl and we have had fun hanging out lately....Thanks for the picture C.

I have been in a somewhat quite place. I have been feeling somewhat still inside. I think it started with the cleaning..We all do laundry and dishes and clean and clean and clean..If you walked into my house you would say I was fibbing...Gloria you need to clean !!! but I have, but you cant tell , well I cant tell either...but I have been Lightening my load...The drawers are sparse and you can see the floors of all the closets..My belongings and those of my kids are slowly becoming less...I have to admit it feels great..My left side of my brain goes like this...Gloria you might need that..Its so cute, Christopher gave you that paperclip for your birthday ..save it. My right side tells me...Gloria ,please throw that away. You don't need it. Christopher is OK with it too...(he was 3 and I don't think he remembers) OK.. you get it..Let go of the little paperclips. This does not mean let go of the memories ..no way Jose..This means that I am finding that by giving away, throwing out and being much more selective of stuff I bring into my house ..I am more at peace...It becomes easier for me to be more aware of what is important to me..We all know whats important to us..but to consciously look for those moments in out everyday life is harder..I think the de-cluttering of my house has put me in a still and more grounded space..

Right now I am feeling like I have so much to think about...because I have let go of so much. I am looking into the empty drawers of my life only to find they are full..of unexpected joy ,friendships and love. Was all this goodness there the whole time but my drawers were to full of paperclips for me to see....or was I holding on to all the crap in there and feeling sorry for myself

That I was completely closed off to what would could be in my drawers...(I am not sure).but I do know this ..somehow I am understanding that blaming others for the crap in my closets does not work..It only makes me feel worse and others around me feel bad for me. I don't want that..I am learning that the cleaning of my house, and my mind and letting go of the blame in my past is so healing... after all I am a consistent work in progress..My tomorrow is what I make it. I can choose to believe in myself or not. I must keep trying always to better myself ...If I choose to get stuck in the past or not..That's My choice...to believe that if I consciously try to work on myself ... by Letting go of the past so that I can be here .. fully present for today..this moment...then I am OK...better that OK...happy!!!!

A woman sees what she looks for -Barbara Jenkins,author

Sunday.

Dear Mr. Summer Log

Oh..Mr. Summer Log,

You are turning out so cute...I am excited to fill you in...With lots of creative memories and color..page two is coming...Carrie promised to bring the oh... so cute pictures from our play date yesterday...so I will pay attention to you today too...OK.. I have to go for a small run but I will be back to fill in your pages....G

Me on Wed..

I have decided to make wed the day I give myself permission to ramble..So I am going to try to make it my self portrait and rambling day since some how in my brain the two go together...OK I seem to be felling much better..but that could change tomorrow...I am more aware of my happiness and sadness.. I think I need to pray more..My girl friend found out she was sick and it changed my view of my girlfriends...I am really learning how much I love them and how much I need them. My girlfriend appreciation meter with myself went way up..I have been spending lots of time with Carrie she is very inspirational to me...(thank you C)...I love mail don't you...I am trying to send out a card to a friend every week...Monday is still my favorite day of the week and I hope that never changes..OK...my kids...I am in love with all three...My little boy...well I am trying really hard to be both loving and strong but I have to admit I think I am too nice so that makes me a pushover...but I am aware and trying...My little girl ...well she is her own girl and I love that she tries to be like me and that she tries not to be like me...My soon to be 16 year old...She is so pretty and she can be very sweet too but hello she is 15....so all can say in reagards to my mothering is I love them completely ...
OK...and I just want to touch on this because know I am not the only one...My sadness comes and goes and I tried meds...but they make me so tired and hazy....so I am doing the only thing that seems to work for me...exercise and the one day at a time method..Some days are GREAT others OK and others just suck....but don't give up (right) because there is always tomorrow and tomorrow might be great if so we just keep moving forward well we are bound to run into all of it...a rainbow of beautiful human emotions....and I dont want to miss any of it....

Pink Ninja Addicts....Blog Hop

Hello ....and If this is your first time visiting my Blog...WELCOME...and make yourself at blog home.I am really excited to participate in The Pink Nina Addicts Blog Hop...I feel like its a little neighborhood party and we have guest coming over...

Our amazing Guest Ninja in the spotlight Designer for this month is Debee Campos...Carrie introduced me to her work and its amazing...Her use of spray paint and layout design ability is beautiful..She created some amazing layouts with this months sing for the moment kit. Go Here to see...
Let me introduce The Pink Ninja Addicts Sing for the moment Kit for June....Taa Daaa

That can be purchased at this etsy shop...
On this blog hop, you'll also get to see all the other creations from the Pink Ninja Addict girls, using both the *Sing For The Moment* Main Kit and the *Fireflies* Embellishment Kit.....so, there will be lots of inspiration. Plus, there are giveaways!!! You can enter for a chance to win one of these beauties: Make a playdate journal by me...



or Summer Journal by Carrie Ellias .This little work of art is hand stiched by Carrie herself and sewn together ..Its lovely...

You have through Saturday, June 26th to enter for a chance to win one of the giveaways. The winners will be announce Sunday, June 27th on the Pink Ninja Addicts blog :-)

And here are the rules to enter.....

• you have to be a follower of the Pink Ninja Addicts
• you have to be a follower of the Pink Ninja Addicts Girls..ecxcept me...
• you have to talk about this blog hop on your blog, and the Pink Ninja Addicts have to see it
• you have to leave a comment on the Pink Ninja Addicts blog
• you have to sport the Pink Ninja Addicts blinkie on your blog

And here is one of my alyouts I created or my Bella with the June kits.....



Thank You for hopping on over and have fun....

So Perfect ....

I saw this quote on Kind Over Matter Blog.....love it...

Sunday. Sunday. Sunday

On this lovely Saturday

On this lovely Saturday.....We made it a point to get together to work on our summer journal...(Carrie and I)
with the use of my wonderful birthday gift (love it) we were able to have instant satisfaction..
The Summer log is made and ready to collect our sweet summer memories...I am planning in my head..Maybe a small road trip and lots of time running and biking...picnics and bbq's with my little people..oh and a little sewing for Bella....I cant wait to log it all in here..
Color pencils + Elsie Summer Camp Class + Creating Play dates= A mini Summer Log worthy of all my summer memories !!!!!!!!

Learning New Things....

My friend Carrie and I had a creation play date with Jane...She is a wonderful woman that Carrie and I have great admiration for...(her ART rocks) .Today we tried cross stitching ..I have not really ventured into this world before...but with Elsie and her summer camp being our driving forceand not to mention Jane is a pro .....We got our needles ready and went for it....Carrie took some great pictures too...Go here to check hers out... Jane made the cutest little bicycle with the perfect yellow I love you...
I made the red I love you that took me a very long time and a-lot of patience because I am a little active for this Art form...but I love the practice of trying to be still....
and then sweet Carrie made the oh so cutest little camper with the xoxo....The time we spent together was perfect...Tomorrow afternoon I think we will be working on our art journal ....Happy Saturday

My mom the superhero

This is my little boy that does not let me take his picture anymore...I wanted to share this mad libs that turned into a mothers day card to me....I think its perfect coming from my 9 year old boy...

Dear Mom,

If you were a superhero, like wonder pizza you would have a -lot of fat powers..Like dumpsters in the back of your head.. Then you would be able to see everything that my chipmunks do when they think you are not cleaning. And you would be able to do 7 things all at once. You could talk to a chicken while cooking and plan the calendar while talking on the phone. Think of all the things you could do in a day. You could work at Wallmart . Then drive me to gymnastics for practice.Take me out to an evil dinner with your shoes on backwards. Then come and watch me play video games at school Wait.....that's just a typical day for you right....That's so secret!! Thanks for all you do!

Love Christopher

Pink Ninja addicts....monday

I adore my little boy...I did this layout using The Carrie kit that you can get here... I love how sweet and not completely girly it turned out..The embellishments were so cute and so stack able..that's important because we all love to stack green flowers with yellow flowers etc ..My little guy is not really into letting me take his picture anymore so when I get a cute one I scrap it..Have a great Monday....

It's Sunday.

Out at the mall with my BFF

Oh ..how I missed you sweet Carrie... so when you called and asked me to go shopping with you I was in..........
There is no cosmetic beauty like happiness..miss Blessing ton
The delights of self discovery are always available. Gaile Sheeny
Don't compromise yourself ,You're all you've got..
Be Silly..don't worry no one is watching..
Life is raw material..We can choose who we want to be ...Something beautiful or not. Its our choice...Gloria
You don't have to decide what you're going to be, ever. You can be something different every day if you want . Laurie Anderson's mom...
Character is what you know you are, not what others think you have...Marva Collins
No love, no friendship can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever...Janeen Koconis
If you obey all the rules you miss all the fun. Katherine Hepburn