August Left me ...

August was emotional.. In good way.  My kids are growing up and you know how people tell you it goes by really fast. Its true it does. I feel my self growing up too. Yes I am an adult but you never stop growing or getting it. I am feeling my growth and I am just going with it. Letting it pass through me and letting myself when I am aware of whats happening watching. This month I somehow was able to do this. I held my children a little bit longer and I held there hands when they road with me in the car. I tried to be aware of the love that so closely surrounds me. I feel that running so much and feeling tired some how helps me feel more and worry less.  (my sister carmen and me last week) She is such a fighter.

August is gone but it left me so much. I am grateful for the people I met and the great conversations I had. I am grateful for this little plant that is accidentally growing in my yard. SO yes the August heat kicked my ass but I am grateful for that too. 

Julian Full Moon Run

Hi Peeps. I wanted to get this written while I still felt all excited about the event I was lucky enough to be a part of yesterday. I signed up for The Julian Full Moon 12 and 24 run . This was a fund raiser for SURF . San Diego Ultra Runners Friends . I was definitely excited about running in an event again.  This event started at 8 am. So since its an hour drive from my house I left early and on my way I went.

I was happy to see some of my favorite people there. Ricky and Becca. Ricky is one of the best runners I am lucky to call these people my friends. I love the early OK not to early but I love those 30 minutes before a race. The buzz in the air is beautiful. All the happy runners with dreams and goals running around in their head. OK so about this race. It was put on by the best race directors in San Diego. There was about 60 runners and I think that an intimate ultra. There was plenty of drinks and gels and salt tablets .Everything  you need when running for a long ass time. 

The course was a half mile loop on dirt and grass around a working farm. There was goats and donkeys I think. The course was well marked and everyone was able to set up there table and tent and whatever you needed the volunteers helped. This is Nartaya and me 2 minutes before it started. OK can you tell how hot it is and its not even 8am yet…It was so hot. 

Since I have never ran in a loop race or run before I did not really know what to expect or what to aim for. So here is my thinking. I get to go do this and be part of race that includes my favorite things. Good people, running, and lots of laughing .

The terrain was easy. There was no altitude or hills just some grass and dirt. It was an easy half mile loop. What was the hard part you ask ? The mountains came in the shape of Heat .. This race was held on a really hot day. OMG I felt like I was cooking. I think the high was 95 to 100 degrees. That was for hours and hours. 

There was people there who killed it in the heat but that did not include me. I had fun I got a great tan and I did run 72 laps.  I did learn a couple things about myself .. I do better when its a point to point race. If there is a chair with my name on it evert half mile chances are I will sit in it. If my friends sit in there chair chances are I will sit with them. If there are people walking and they want to talk  then chances are I will stop and talk. So that does not make for lots of miles  thats makes for G having a great time . Oh so thats 36 miles I ran .

My friend here killed it . She ran 108 laps and she ran for 24 hours. I feel so happy for her. There where lots of amazing runners that just kept going.  The race was awesome it was hot but you can't control the weather. I ran from 8am to 8 pm. Next year I think I will do 8pm to 8 am change things up. So there you go it was the perfect way to spend a Saturday. If you ask me ? 

Running for 12 hours . Yes I am

I did it again. There I was feeling sorry for myself for a couple of weeks. I was feeling like this flower   I was screaming for water or anything that made me feel alive again. I needed to rest but my mind was driving me crazy . It was filling me with insecurities. Your to old to run or you need to lose weight thats why your tired or maybe your just not a good runner ..( my crazy mind ) My body on the other hand needed naps. So I rested and like everything life has its ups and down and so I just road the wave. Ups and downs. I have been feeling the need to sign up for a race and I did. Tomorrow morning I will be running
The Julian Full Moon 12/24 hour run.  I know this will fill me with joy ..

I hope to feel like this flower. Big fat happy oh and blooming. For a runner like me its not about speed because there is always someone faster. Its about spending a whole day running OK not a whole day I am running the 12 hour race. Its about the experience . It's about having a goal of 50 miles in 12 hours. It's about trying something hard because its going to be 95 degrees out in Julian tomorrow. It is about challenging my self and living. Making my life fun and having a cool story to tell my kids.  You have to write your own story because nobody else will. I want to run and so send me lots of good wishes as I try to get 50 miles in 12 hours .. A bunch of my great friends will be running to so how fun ! What are you doing this weekend ? Something fun I hope or maybe its your turn to rest . If its rest up ..

Door

Continuing wit August Break. What do you see in this door. I see so much goodness . I see colored walls fallowed by table with filled with paint and brushes. People laughing and I even see a wine spritzer. I see clear vases filled with hot pink flowers , maybe like the ones outside the door. The floors are concrete and its warm inside. I see large pieces of paper hanging on the wall with drawing on them. That's what I imagine.

August Break continues

The word is green. That's how I felt about this 14 mile run. I felt green. I should know better . I should know better than to go run when its almost 100 degree because I get sick. I got so sick after this run but hey it was a good run and hey its green out here and oh yeah I got my miles in.. Oh but did I pray a price. 3 day migraine. It was just so HOT. oh but once again I have to say that my bipolar relationship with running seems to be going on the up swing. I am slowly falling in love with it again.  I even signed up for a 12 hour run this Saturday.  Still no running in crazy heat for me.

August Break continues

In the distance: In the distance I see a big world and my children slowly walking into it. I see shade where they will rest . In the distance I am scared that I will not be able to protect them . I pray that when they arrive I will have given them the tools they need to survive. I do wish I could hold there hand forever but just like in this picture I now they need to learn to walk on there own and probably so do I. 

Water : water fascinates me . It can make you feel so many strong emotions . The calm flows over me when I see it in its stillness. I imagine families on warm days enjoying the water. Water leaves you with memories . It can give you confidence. You can immerse yourself in it and go through it. Its beautiful and cold and very alive. 

August Break

I am continuing with August Break. The word is Curves. So many things have curves but I thought about mine and how it can be to accept the ones you have specially after having kids. Its this constant openess one need to have to accepting that our body change with age and accepting that change. Curves is difficult for me. I have always been some what afraid of my own curves. Its a struggle that I constantly work at. Somedays I wake and its fine others I struggle but on most days I am to busy to really care. Life is funny that way.

My aunt is in her 70s and she came over and taught me how to make shredded beef her way. She is the cutest thing stand at 4 feet 9 inches. I love her sweetness and I was grateful to be able to have her in my home. The word for today is real life and this sums up mine.

Two

I am continuing with August Break and the word is two. Look who is two today at my house. This cute little man . I can't believe he has only been here two years. I feel like he has been in my heart forever. Two the perfect age. Happy Birthday Little man. 

Sweet Delight

The word is Sweet Delight. Everyone has a different take on whats sweet and for me its this super yummy fruit.  This is one of those things I try to put into my mouth slowly and I eat it slowly too. I love it !!

August Break continues

continuing with August Break. August 15th word is art. This is one of my favorite paintings I have done. Its not my style but I just really like her colors and her side view. Its always fun to try new color pallets. My art usually always feels funny to me but not this girl.

Hot.. This was me on my Saturday run feeling so crazy hot. It was 97 degrees and I was so hot. I got my miles in but I also got a horrible migraine that I am sure came from the sun. 

Book. This is what I am reading right now. I like it because its entertaining and an easy read. Yes I also got my little m and m nails done.

Look up. This sunset was magical yesterday. I am going to continue with August break and share my week in the life next week.  

#week in the life

Iam joining in A week in the life by Ali Edwards I have been scrapping for over 10 years now but I have not managed to be able to fallow through on a week in the life. I am way more prepared this year. I have my album and kit ready to go. I am going to be sharing as much as I can on my blog. I finished my December Daley last year and it's one of my favorite family albums. It is so fun to look back and see how last December was so special. I have everything ready to go so lets do this !!

August Break Continues.

continuing with August Break .. This is my favorite smell. Yes its this little boy. Sweaty , stinky , just out of the shower . I do not care everything him is my favorite smell.

Day 14. A year ago today. I was kissing my oldest because I adore her. I love her sense of fashion . How brave she is with her style. The sweet little girl that will always live inside of her to me. A year ago today I was right where I was opposed to be.

August break

yellow 

Edge    There is something special about getting to the top and standing on the edge. We are all a unique part of something so great.  Its when you stand  on the edge that you can really understand.

Talisman

August Break

Earth

Skin
Continuing with August Break Promps

5 things about me

Happy Friday Night. Some of you are out on the town  and some of us are in bed. Friday nights are for whatever you want. You made it through the week and whatever you want to do is ok.
  I am fallowing along with Susannah Conway August Break.

5 things about me
I have ran 20 marathons (crazy )
I get up at 6 am everyday( because I have a toddler)
I have serious sleeping skills.( play hard sleep even harder)
I believe everything happens for a reason.( absolutely )
I have been journaling and scrapbooking for 15 years (so true)
Some fun random facts about yours truly.
G

Sometimes it feels like the movies

Silence

Silence 

Hello Birdie

This.. A new Girl 
 Sometimes when I  sit down to paint I know what I want to paint. In this case it was the bird and then she came along. I didn't know what she was going to look like until I was done. Then its like meeting a someone new. Does that make sense ? She makes smile.  Happy Wednesday Peeps. 

August Break

 Breakfast

 Skin

Air

My take on August Break. 

A picture for everyday. 

Keeping it simple.

G