Hi guys..

  Hi guys...how are you ?? Guess what.. I got to start running today. My doctor gave me the OK.  I am so excited. My girl friend Elena came with me and we  walked more than we ran but still every little bit counts . We ran/jogged for 3 miles. I know its not a-lot but the first run is the hardest.  I was so happy to just be outside. I was feeling a little cooped up. I love the feeling that running gives you that just makes me feel free.

 So before I got pregnant I weighed 125. That's my normal weight but  in the last 9 months I got to 180.

Crazy hu.. Yup I was hungry and I was making a baby. 

So this morning I woke up weighed myself. I am at 149 right now. I told myself Its time to start getting back in shape. I am not doing to much but I am eating healthier and I started running today. I am starting with 3 miles a couple times a week and 5 or 6 on the weekend .. I am so excited .. The other thing I am going to do is 100 squats a day for 30 days.. They say it makes a huge difference in strength. Its called the 30 day squat Challenge. .  I just finished day 2. Holy cow it hurts but its fun. I mean if you want to you do it ..you can.. I thought it would be fun to see how long it took me to get back into shape. Ill be checking in with pictures to motivate myself.. and maybe you.

Miss P is 19

Today is a special day because my sweet Paola is 19 today..time goes by really fast and I am so glad that she has been with me for what seems like my whole life. I love this girl with all my heart and I am so proud of her for being so authentic. She is fun and she dresses so cute. She loves life and she is a total girly girl. 

Here we are .. Miss P was 2 and I was 26.  It has been an amazing journey being her mom. I just want to wish her a magical birthday..Love you Paola..

Happy Monday

Hello and guess what ? I only got to Wednesday on my week in the life. I tried but when changing a baby diaper is not the most exciting thing there is to do... and but I am adding what I did do to my album for this month. I am also starting baby Jacks album tomorrow . My pictures will be ready to pick up and away we go. I made something super crazy good last night. I had to share with you.

I feel the trick was that the bananas were really ripe. Its so easy and so good ..

3 or 4 ripe bananas smashed 

1/3 cup melted butter

1 cup of sugar ( I used half a cup)

1 egg beaten

1 teaspoon of vanilla

1 teaspoon baking soda

pinch of salt

1 1/12 cups of flower

Mix everything together. Cook for 1 hour at 350 and that's easy..

It was so so good. I made one for us and one for the lady that came to help me unpack..I hope you have a happy Monday.

A week in the life.. Wednesday

Our morning drive to school takes about 45 minutes. Its better than an hour drive right ? I have to share that this drive is one of my favorite things to do because what we do it sing and dance. This wednesday it all about MC Hammer. We put on Pandora and jammed all the way to school. I love this because we laugh and I just feel when they get to school they must feel relaxed and happy. Baby Jack slept through the while jam session in the Prius.

Then I came home made a quick breakfast and even though it seems boring it was back to watching and loving my baby boy.

Do I look tired ? I am and was..but then I look at my little man and next thing you know half the day is gone and its off to pivk them up and

today was after school treat time. Frozen Yogurt with lots of extras.

We took a walk around town and I felt so happy to be outside. I just wanted to fly into clouds..I took the baby in a stroller for the first time today too. I also know we cant be out to long because we have homework and a long drive home..

For dinner we had Hawaiian food..Then it was bed time .. I guess life is simple when you have a new born. I like it. I could a we bit more sleep..

A week in the life ..Tuesday

Tuesday morning came quickly. I was in the shower at 6am. I had to hurry before the baby woke up. Our new house was empty for a while so the water heater was turned on low so yes !!! I have been taking a shower in Luke warm water. I do not mind it because it wakes me up but my body would say she minds it..

I make both my kids take a shower yes in  warm water. Its very important to me they go to school clean and looking there best. I love doing Isabella's hair in the morning. She did not like me touching her head for about 2 years but she finally just gave in and now even when she is with her dad she tries to do it herself. My kids have always wore uniforms I think that helps make the morning go way faster because they know what they are wearing.

School starts at around 8 so I promised myself this year we would not be late so we have been getting to school 15 min early. I love this moment and its the first time I take a picture of it. We choose to have our children and then we try to make the best choices as there parents to try and teach them to be good human beings. I always think when they walk out of the car and go into there own small world of school that what I am doing is making a difference in there life. As I see this picture all I can think is make good choices and know you are loved Bella. 

After an hour and half drive I am coming home to this !!!      Have you tried Girl Scout coffee mate..You need to its so good. 

The afternoon come quickly for me and while baby J is napping I started a new on line class..I love on line classes they are so much fun. 

After school we came home to get there home work done and since I had an extra kid for the day I asked to take this picture. Its me and my four kids. Everyone has there own personality and I dig it. Paola holding baby J. Looking at this picture makes me smile.

Every day involves lots and lots of time spent breast feeding and this would be a happy baby after feeding for about 45 minutes. 

before you know it it is dinner time. We had chicken mashed potatoes and corn. Basic but always a winner.

Then before you know it the day was gone. Time for tea and sleep..

A Week in the Life..Monday

I am going to do my best to fallow along with Ali Edwards this week and so here we go.. My Monday pictures. I wake up at 6 am to make a bottle for baby Jack. My little boy  lost some weight when he was born because my milk took some time to come in so I ended up feeding him formula and me. He is still not up to his birth weight so I breast feed him and if he is still hungry I give him a couple ounces of milk . I felt guilty but now I am OK with it because its not about how I feel its about getting my little boy up to his birth weight.

Project 365 has now become all bout baby J.

Here he is just looking up at me. We are not going out much because he is only 20 days old and with a c section I am not supposed to really drive to much yet..

We hang out at home a-lot. I do as much unpacking as I can as you can see in this picture my dinning room is just a room right now with a crib and desk.. Moving is fun.

I had company yesterday too. My friend Elena came by to meet baby Jack and to see me too. Its always nice to speak to an adult when your with your baby all day.

I got my kids yesterday too. I had not seen then in a couple of days I missed them and now I have them for a whole week. Here we are my car my kids..36$ to fill up my car not bad...

We came home and I make them a snack and since we are in 5th and 7 grade we have to get used to doing homework as soon as we get home ..There is way more work now and giving ourselves more time makes doing home work less stressful. I say us because there is a-lot of mommy help needed :)

Here we are admiring Jack .. Christopher was telling me all bout school and asking me if he could change the furniture in his room. I said yes you can and so he did..

Gotta Love moving. Its Isabella's love of dolls that got us to 10 dolls in 9 years. She gets one doll for her Birthday every year. I will gladly keep giving her a doll for as long as she wants. Being a child seems to go by so fast I will nurture her love for dolls as long as she wants me too. I played with dolls until I was 16..I had Cabbage Patch Kids.

Our day was low key and now its time for bed. Bella is saying good night and even though its only 8pm ..I was ready to go to bed and surprisingly my kids where too. Thats my monday and I slept like baby. All of my kids are under my roof and thats the best feeling ever. 

Happy Monday

Hi guys how are you ? Here I am proud momma  showing pictures of my babies on there first day of school.  I wish I could say I have lots going on but I am mostly been loving on my babies..Specially my little tiny new one. I have also been unpacking but carefully since I still hurt a little. Our new house is pretty cool. I love that all of my kids have there own room. 4 kids 4 rooms. Tonight will be the first night all bedrooms will be full. I am going to try my hardest to fallow along with ally a week in the life so I hope to have lots to share this week..

Happy Monday.

Moving Time

I am moving in less than a 48 hours..Crazy hu.. A baby and now a move. I am really excited about the house the best part is it has one bed room for each of my kids. I always wanted a house that fit all of us. Last night after baby J went to sleep I went down stairs and just felt like writing and drawing ...I drew, I wrote and I cried. Its so crazy to me that 3 years ago I was so scattered. I got divorced (horrible experience ) I was not sure where I would live and I was looking for a job for the first time in 10 years. A full time job. I felt broken. As I was sitting on my dinning room table last night I realized how lucky I have been because everything worked out.

I have learned a-lot in the last 3 years. The biggest thing is Money does not make you happy doing things with people you love makes you happy. Learning the people around me and making time to love them. I love my sisters and brothers more than ever. My mom and dad totally helped us out when  it came time to buy our house. How do thank someone for that kind of help ?? Maybe just tell them you love them everyday and lots of phone calls and text.. My heart is feeling incredibly grateful and its funny how things just worked out..seriously thanking the man upstairs for all the blessings in my life...

Happy September

Happy September ..

Oh man I miss my blog and writing my silly thoughts. I have quick moment before baby Jack wakes up and yes wants to feed. I have spent the last ten days breast feeding a very hungry little baby boy. I actually stayed with my mom the first week because with  c-section I needed help. Cooking for my other 3 kids and getting them out of the house was left up to my dad. My hands and feet were so swollen that doing the basic stuff became difficult for the first week after having baby J. My mom helped me shower because  washing my hair was just to painful but my doctor told me that in two weeks and I would be 90% better and he was right. Its funny what you choose to forget after having a baby because I don't remember anything like this happening last time but I was told it did.. The best thing is every time something hurts I just look at my baby and the pain goes away in my heart. I feel so grateful to have such a tiny little boy to love. My kids are being such great helpers and I am so not alone doing all the baby stuff its great. My kids go back to school tuesday so today we went to the store to get uniforms and school supplies. I love back  to school shopping.. So there you have it..Oh I almost forget to share we bought a house and we move in to it on Thursday.. I will share pictures as soon as we move.. Happy September 

He has arrived

He has arrived
Hello and guess what..My brand new baby boy is one week old. He arrived last tuesday right on time. Everything turned out better than I could have imagined. I was really scared to give birth but it turned out fine. I am completely over the moon in love with the new addition to our family. This little guy Jack is such a good baby and I cant stop looking at him. He is sleeping through the night but then again he is sleeping all day. I feel so incredibly blessed. I love being a mom and I always new I was going to have  4 kids and that my fourth would be a boy. I have been waiting for the little guy and now he is here..
I gave him the name
Jack P. Roberts
8 pounds 4 ounces
21 inches long
So far the first week with him has been beautiful. The 50 pounds I gained and all the great things that come with pregnancy were worth it..I will be sharing more pictures soon..

She fills me

Hello and Good Morning. I am sitting in my sisters room just her and I hanging out. I have always loved being in her presence . She is such a blessing to my life. She represents everything that is pure and good to me. So very early this morning I came into her room and she was awake so I just sat with her and held her hand. I will be heading to the hospital in about two hours and at 1pm I have a scheduled C section so I will get to meet my new little boy. I have been really happy to see how excited my children are about having a baby brother. My daughter Paola has been so good and Isabella and Christopher could not be more excited. Its crazy to think that we as woman can make babies. Its a crazy miracle. I feel that everything will go well and that soon I will be sharing pictures of my baby. Sitting here with my sister  makes everything better. As I sit here I feel like crying and I am not sure why. I feel so grateful to be able to stay here at my moms while I recover. I feel so loved by my other siblings. I know my best friend is thinking about me today. My heart needed to feel settled this morning. I feel it is now. Have a great day and I will share more pictures soon.

Saturday Night Walk

Tonight I went on a walk with my little family. My body felt like saying no but my brain was saying yes. I felt like I needed to go outside for a walk all day today. As we walked during sunset I was reminded of why I love going outside so much. Going outdoors is such a good thing. I feel so much better happier and I laughed a-lot. It was a challenge walking a couple miles but hey I did it and I am so glad I did.. Have you been outside lately. Its a amazing what a short walk can do for the spirit...

Friday Night Pictures with thoughts

I am so excited to be able to wear these as soon as my feet are no longer swollen. 

I love this hair style on Bella.

Starting next week no more pizza for a while.

Looking forward to being able to work on my projects with out my hands hurting.

Yeah for vitamin C..

Soda for me Coffee for Miss P

I love my beautiful Miss P.
As I sit here taking it easy but feeling very emotional. I know that very soon everything will change as a new little person enters my life. I hope everything goes well. Its crazy to think that today he is in my tummy but soon he will be in my arms. I hope to be able to start doing a picture a week of my kids. I am looking forward to moving in two weeks and working on his nursery. So much to look forward too.. This is one of those times that I am actually looking forward to change..
after all
change is good.

6 days to go

Good Evening and how are you?? I am really nervous and excited to be so close to my due date. I am having a C section so it for sure going to happen on Tuesday unless something happens this weekend. I wonder what this little baby is going to look like. I am excited to see his little feet. I am also really excited to move on to the next chapter..Having this little baby in my arms ..I am also looking forward being able to sleep. Sleeping has been very hard lately. It just hurts to sleep but I know its all worth it. I will keep you posted....

Bella makes Art

My girlfriend just turned 40. That's a big deal . Happy Birthday Jenn . I asked Bella what she wanted to give Jenny for her birthday and she said mama I would like to make her a painting. I love that she calls me mama but what I love the most about my daughter is how much she loves to make art . Its so fun to watch how fast she does it. I think its because she is not afraid to mess up. She knows she is a wonderful artist and it shows. I hope I am always feed her love for art. My friend Jenny has two cats so Bella painted two cats for her. 

This is a proud mom showing off her daughters art. Have a wonderful day..

Bobble and Color

I went on a retreat a couple years ago. It took place on the coast of Oregon and it was pure magic. Be present retreats.  If I could I would go every year but I feel blessed that I was there when I was. I met a wonderful lady with a great personality while I was there..Her name is Kelly and she is an artist. She is also a writer and she makes beautiful jewelry. I bought myself a bauble bracelet from her Etsy shop last week. Its bright and happy and I love it. I hope to add a necklace soon :) ..Go check out her cute shop and if you need some color in your life this bracelet is the way to go...